I’ve decided to be celibate for the next 30 days, after a conversation with my close friend about what it really means to sleep with someone. I feel hollow after I have sex. It’s like I know the person is there with me, we are together, in the moment, feeling that powerful drug oxytocin but afterward it always feels that I am the one left in bliss and the other person is in denial. I’m not a selfish lover. I love to love and give, it’s what I do. But I am done feeling hollow after all this giving. 30 days of no jerking off, no touching, no kissing, no orgasms will be a challenge but it will clear my head of all the misconceptions and knots in my consciousness holding me back from experiencing true happiness. That happiness will come but not now. On to monking it, folks.